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Wow, first post of 09, lots of pressure - but I have to say, this year is starting off wonderfully! Only one bad thing has happened so far and I sort of need to get it out of the way: I almost threw up at Bikram yoga. I don't know if it's just being out of shape, or the fact that I had some peanut butter toast 2 hours before class ( I really need to not eat before class at all. like, it must be about 5 hours before class or something...) So anyway, i'm in class and I start to feel really lightheaded and panicky and I'll looking at my yoga mat like I'm going to hurl on it. So I run out of the room, take a bunch of cool air deep breaths and realize that I have to go back, this is ridiculous. I can't just leave after 20 minutes of a 90 minute class. So I go back in and the instructor says to me, "Did you throw up?" in front of everyone. I really wanted to die. If throwing up is my top 1 least favorite thing to do, then being embarassed in front of a group of people is my top 2nd least favorite thing to do. I shook my head no, and then thought I was going to throw up again out of embarassment.

But in the spirit of starting the new year off right, I always like to make myself a little list of things that I want for the new year.  This year I also want to do something a little different, look back at last year and how much happened. I feel like that's always pretty amazing what can happen in a year.

Things that happened:

My amazing boyfriend, we just celebrated our one year anniversary at the end of November. The best thing he said to me over the holidays was, "Sometimes I feel like we've only been going out a few months." and he meant it in a good way, not a wow, who the hell are you??? kind of way... I think... Anyway, he makes me really happy

I got Rattle and Bark off the ground. OK, not far off the ground, but up and running and in the name of Rattle and Bark I've taught myself embroidery and I'm about to teach myself (this week in fact!) printing with linoleum blocks so I can do some gretting cards and print on canvas bags and stuff.

I let some stuff go this year. Just released it into the wind and sometimes it does hang over me still, but for the most part I feel like I've been able to work on some stuff that's really tripped me up in the past.

I finished the first draft of my screenplay. I have to go back to it and start on the second draft - and soon, but hey, I got my first draft done.

Things that I want to happen in the new year:

1. I want to be more productive with the projects I love. I've had a rush of ideas in the New Year - partly inspired by the new medium that I've been experimenting with, and will continue to experiment with, but I need to do more. Like Sigourney Weaver said to Melanie Griffith in Working Girl, "Who makes it happen Tess?" and Tess says, "I make it happen." Corny, but true. This year, I'm going to make it happen. Without the shoulder pads and big hair though...

2. I want to be a better friend and a better girlfriend. This is something that goes on the list every year. Well, the friend part does, I've never had a boyfriend who made me want to be a better girlfriend before...

3. Take charge of my life more. If I want it to be different I have to change it, but be smart about it.

4. Final drafts. Or at least second drafts... the screenplay and the novel. It's time... Last year was all about gutting the novel and building the screenplay's skeleton. Now it's time to put it all together.