I finished the first draft of my screenplay over the weekend, something that you would think would make me positively elated. I even gave it to my friend, the one who is my partner in this project and will be handling the producing side of things once it gets going. Anyway, you would think that all this would make me feel great, but somehow I just feel weird about it. While you're working on a project it's still under your control. You can make changes, you can work on it, you can not. You can have a great day with it, a bad day with it, it's like a companion. And then when you finish it, even a draft, it's like it's gone. And there's nothing you can do. You just have to wait while other people read it and judge it. Man, no wonder it's so hard to finish things - there's this slight feeling of satisfaction when you do, but if you're someone without an agent, without serious prospects for the project it just feels like it's being release into the ether....
But, I have other projects to work on, quite a few actually. I was in a cab on the way to work yesterday - yeah, work on a Sunday, but what are you going to do, right? And there was this thing on those annoying cab TVs about how much money people spend on their dogs, and it seemed like - not a sign - I don't really believe in that stuff - but just a little reminder of the other huge project that I've started. I'm doing a photo shoot with an adorable pug named Owl tonight, I really hope Owl fits into the tees - they are super tiny... but she's pretty small too.
I also have my other writing projects to work on - the revision of my novel and my short stories for the literary magazine that I'm starting with friends. Somehow the short stories seem harder than the novel, I think that's because short stories are a lot harder in a way. You have to be so focused in your telling of the story and it really has to be this litte slice of life... I need to start reading some short stories to get myself into the right mindframe...
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